First step over, one step closer

I passed my driving theory! Haha, seems like such a small victory, but it is one step closer to obtaining my driving license. Turns out i now have to do another course, a 6 hour practical one this time, consisting of 3 hours in the classroom and another 3 hours outside. Yet another whole day of stoning and blurness (all in Malay!) :( If i'm not wrong, this is a pretty new implementation, so if i had taken my driving stuff earlier on, i would not have needed to attend this new additional 6 hour course, FML.

So, like i said, i passed my driving theory today, and i went through the 5 hour theory course without understanding a thing. Literally. It was carried out completely in Malay, but that's not my current grouse. I went through a course supposedly to educate me on safe driving without understanding almost anything, only started 'studying' this morning (my driving instructor gave me an english book), took my test at midday, and STILL managed to pass the theory test. All the odds were against me. I'm not saying this shows i'm exceptionally smart, i'm not. It just culminates in me not having much faith in this whole system in producing safe and knowledgeable drivers. Even if i wanted to study more, the information just wasn't available to me. (I went through the whole english book.)The malay book had a lot more information, and in my defense, i did try to read it, but let's just say my understanding may not have been quite correct. Anyhow, there's still the practical stuff to do, so i'll just have to see how that goes before drawing a conclusion.

On a positive note, i am beginning to get used to blogging- the words flow a lot easier now, and it doesn't feel so awkward anymore, so i guess i will continue 'blogging'. Like everything else in life, the first step is always the hardest for me, and i always feel so tempted to quit then, or just ignore the possibility, but knowing myself, i just need to push myself through that first hurdle and it'll be fine. And i'd LIKE to think that once i've made a decision, i will see it through :) So my post's tittle pretty much alludes to both my driving stuff and my blog- i feel i've overcome my first and biggest obstacle :)

Haha, since this is such a wordy post, i'm ending it with this random pic of a lorry i saw one day.


Hahaha, i apparently provide the best home appliance repair service. Nationwide, k. Don't mess! LOL!

It's 2.25 am

That used to be not THAT late by my standards, especially during study break and all, but since the hols i've been sleeping relatively early, so i would say it's pretty late for me right now. However, i am in a contemplate-ish mood, and this is a completely impromptu and random post, so bear with me.

To be honest, I HATE blogging. Expressing my thoughts, views and i suppose to a certain extent, life on a public platform just feels so self-indulgent and narcissistic, and i do think i'm bad enough as it is. Don't get me wrong, i have nothing against bloggers or people who blog. In fact, i've now come to realise that it really isn't easy at all writing a blog, so their ability to do so is admirable. I just feel awkward writing a blog. Yeah, i do know i've only written one post which was all of er, 4-5 lines? So, how could i possibly draw such a strong conclusion, "I HATE blogging", so soon you ask? Well, I've been trying, seriously, but it just isn't working.

In addition, i haven't been writing, well, stuff, or at least things that focus more on the flow or writing style rather than just content, in ages. The last time i probably did so was in school, and that was years ago, so it is highly likely i'm more than a little rusty. But i really did love writing in school, and i was pretty good at it! (Haha, i did say i was narcissistic enough already.) But seriously, when i re-read my old work, i do think some of the stuff i wrote back then really wasn't bad at all.

I loved english, and i still do, so it really is quite sad that i never continued writing. And yes, i do realise i am 'expressing' myself now, but this is just ranting, which is different, trust me. Still, i do hope that if i rant enough about how much i hate blogging, i'll get it out of my system and come to love blogging or at least tolerate being able to do it. Reverse psychology, self-imposed :) Afterall, this blog is suppose to mark a new-ish beginning, so i just need to pull myself out of this hating-blog-writing funk. If all else, at least i will improve my writing and english (hopefully!)