Sometimes.

Sometimes, things don't turn out the way you expect it to. I think it's a case of knowing what would happen, but wanting to believe in something so badly, you begin to see things the way you want them to. Nothing new, people do it time and time again, but it's just plain stupid. You subconsciously set yourself up to disappoint yourself. You lie to yourself, and i can't stand liars. If you can't be honest to yourself, who can you be really honest to?

First step over, one step closer

I passed my driving theory! Haha, seems like such a small victory, but it is one step closer to obtaining my driving license. Turns out i now have to do another course, a 6 hour practical one this time, consisting of 3 hours in the classroom and another 3 hours outside. Yet another whole day of stoning and blurness (all in Malay!) :( If i'm not wrong, this is a pretty new implementation, so if i had taken my driving stuff earlier on, i would not have needed to attend this new additional 6 hour course, FML.

So, like i said, i passed my driving theory today, and i went through the 5 hour theory course without understanding a thing. Literally. It was carried out completely in Malay, but that's not my current grouse. I went through a course supposedly to educate me on safe driving without understanding almost anything, only started 'studying' this morning (my driving instructor gave me an english book), took my test at midday, and STILL managed to pass the theory test. All the odds were against me. I'm not saying this shows i'm exceptionally smart, i'm not. It just culminates in me not having much faith in this whole system in producing safe and knowledgeable drivers. Even if i wanted to study more, the information just wasn't available to me. (I went through the whole english book.)The malay book had a lot more information, and in my defense, i did try to read it, but let's just say my understanding may not have been quite correct. Anyhow, there's still the practical stuff to do, so i'll just have to see how that goes before drawing a conclusion.

On a positive note, i am beginning to get used to blogging- the words flow a lot easier now, and it doesn't feel so awkward anymore, so i guess i will continue 'blogging'. Like everything else in life, the first step is always the hardest for me, and i always feel so tempted to quit then, or just ignore the possibility, but knowing myself, i just need to push myself through that first hurdle and it'll be fine. And i'd LIKE to think that once i've made a decision, i will see it through :) So my post's tittle pretty much alludes to both my driving stuff and my blog- i feel i've overcome my first and biggest obstacle :)

Haha, since this is such a wordy post, i'm ending it with this random pic of a lorry i saw one day.


Hahaha, i apparently provide the best home appliance repair service. Nationwide, k. Don't mess! LOL!

Sunday!

Haha, i really wanted to force myself to blog yesterday, but i was so so tired thanks to staying up relatively late and waking up relatively early. I only got 5 hours of sleep!! Which is relatively little!! (My relative-ness is all compared to my uni/ pre-exam days, which may not exactly be the best comparison. But still!!!) Anyway, i had a pretty good, albeit random Sunday with my family starting with dim sum for lunch! I didn't think it was that great though, i feel so disappointed by dim sum nowadays :( Am currently on the look out for new yummy dim sum haunts so let me know :)

We went grocery shopping after that! Bought lotsa ham, sausages and all so i can be even lazier and camp out at home :) I wanted to get that low-fact, calcium fortified, REAL milk containing chocolate pudding but they didn't have it :( Haha, and yes, the numerous adjectives are there for a reason- to illustrate to you how healthy it was!! Actually, i think it is just good marketing, but it's pretty yum for a snack, so i fool myself into believing it. Or at least tell myself that since they have to pass the Food and Drug Administration Board or something similar, it can't be utter bullshit hahaha. Decided to get cookies instead- Chipsmore! Oreos are my usual cookies of choice, but i was walking down the cookie aisle and i spotted Chipsmore, and it reminded me of pei san, so i bought it! Haha, and i haven't eaten it in years so i thought i'd remind myself what it tasted like.

We visited a new mall too, (at least it is to me!), called Wangsa Walk Mall and oooh, i found a Levi's Outlet store! Yay!! Haha, women's jeans were going for about RM90- M130, so it's really quite a steal!! About 50% off normal prices :) Denim skirts were around RM 80, while tops were about RM40, which i felt wasn't much of a bargain, but then again, i'm not into Levi tees. Didn't check out the prices for the guys stuff though, but i would imagine they would be about 50% off the original price too. Haha, i was super happy, cause i can now, well, get Levi's on discount like all the time, no need to wait for sales :) Didn't get anything however, still waiting to see what loot i can reap from my Bandung trip early this August. Will definitely come back here before i head off to Aus :DDD

Since we were having dinner with some family friends, we got muffins for them from this place, Just Muffins, which is apparently from Australia. Haha, i was commenting to my family on how i've never seen or heard of them before, while checking out their box for other outlets, and it turned out their head office isn't too far from where i live LOL. I never knew haha.

I like their box! Haha, i think the little koala hugging the muffin is pretty cute, and i love how ergonomic the box was- the muffins fitted in just nice so they couldn't move around or topple over, and the box was really compact.

The muffins are RM 1.80 each, but they have special prices if you buy more, like we bought 12 for RM 18 and there was quite a wide variety to choose from. I wouldn't consider them expensive but i have to say the muffins aren't very big either. I haven't tried them, so i don't know how good they are, do try them if you can! Unfortunately, they don't have very many outlets currently, and none of them are in the major malls (Mid Valley, Sunway, One U and all), hopefully they open more soon!! :DDD

That's it! Till next time :)

It's 2.25 am

That used to be not THAT late by my standards, especially during study break and all, but since the hols i've been sleeping relatively early, so i would say it's pretty late for me right now. However, i am in a contemplate-ish mood, and this is a completely impromptu and random post, so bear with me.

To be honest, I HATE blogging. Expressing my thoughts, views and i suppose to a certain extent, life on a public platform just feels so self-indulgent and narcissistic, and i do think i'm bad enough as it is. Don't get me wrong, i have nothing against bloggers or people who blog. In fact, i've now come to realise that it really isn't easy at all writing a blog, so their ability to do so is admirable. I just feel awkward writing a blog. Yeah, i do know i've only written one post which was all of er, 4-5 lines? So, how could i possibly draw such a strong conclusion, "I HATE blogging", so soon you ask? Well, I've been trying, seriously, but it just isn't working.

In addition, i haven't been writing, well, stuff, or at least things that focus more on the flow or writing style rather than just content, in ages. The last time i probably did so was in school, and that was years ago, so it is highly likely i'm more than a little rusty. But i really did love writing in school, and i was pretty good at it! (Haha, i did say i was narcissistic enough already.) But seriously, when i re-read my old work, i do think some of the stuff i wrote back then really wasn't bad at all.

I loved english, and i still do, so it really is quite sad that i never continued writing. And yes, i do realise i am 'expressing' myself now, but this is just ranting, which is different, trust me. Still, i do hope that if i rant enough about how much i hate blogging, i'll get it out of my system and come to love blogging or at least tolerate being able to do it. Reverse psychology, self-imposed :) Afterall, this blog is suppose to mark a new-ish beginning, so i just need to pull myself out of this hating-blog-writing funk. If all else, at least i will improve my writing and english (hopefully!)

Time for change

I never thought I'd start a blog seriously before this, but there's always a first, and people can change. Not that I'm particularly keen on maintaining a blog now, but I guess it's always good to try new things. Am also in a minor rut, and who knows, this might just pull me out of it :)